Time Paradox: A Personal Journey Through Life's Pressures

"I loved running and whenever I felt stressed it was my go to therapy. Running to me was always about catching, not escaping!" L.Y

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In life, we all encounter various obstacles and challenges that can leave us feeling stressed and overwhelmed. However, amidst these trials, there lies an underlying, somewhat obscure vision that we unconsciously carry with us wherever we go. For some, it may revolve around physical appearance, while for others, it might be about financial concerns or social interactions. In my case, it has always been Time.

Being a person who embraces life passionately, I have often felt the relentless ticking of time, as if there were countless things to accomplish in the limited moments that slip away. From a young age, I found solace in running – my therapeutic escape during times of stress. For me, running has never been about evading problems; rather, it has been a way to chase after my aspirations, to gain a sense of power in being able to catch up with everything if I could just be faster. This underlying drive has instilled a certain impatience in my personality. More often than not, I feel an intense surge of energy, a sense of urgency when starting or pursuing something new. It's as if everything must happen now.

However, within this impulsive side, there exists another facet of my personality - a calculating and planning-oriented side that craves control. The need to meticulously lay out roadmaps and plans before embarking on any endeavor often creates a battlefield in my mind and heart.

I find myself caught between the conflicting notions of "now is the time" and "am I truly ready for this?"

Yet, I have come to realize that these feelings are entirely normal and acceptable, as we all have our insecurities and uncertainties. It is crucial to acknowledge them and strive to maintain control, preventing them from becoming dominating forces that can lead us astray into dark and detrimental spaces.

Understanding our vulnerabilities empowers us to take charge of our emotions and actions, preventing blurred lines from dictating our lives. By embracing self-awareness and mindfulness, we can mitigate the dangers of these inner struggles and emerge stronger, more resilient individuals.

Life is a journey of growth, and we must learn to navigate the complexities of our minds and hearts with grace. Let us be mindful of our internal struggles and cultivate a sense of balance between impulsivity and planning, allowing us to seize the right opportunities at the right time, while also honoring the value of preparation and readiness.

In the end, it is this awareness and conscious effort that will guide us through the blurred lines and lead us towards a brighter, more fulfilling path..